Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday Song Devotions - June 27, 2010
Psalm 99:9 - "Exalt the LORD our God, and worship at His holy mountain; for the LORD our God is holy!"
Author: Phil Wickham
This song is one of my favorites and is a wonderful anthem of praise. When we acknowledge who God is and what He's done, our only response can be that of obedience, surrender and awe. This song inspires that in me and I'm hoping that by teaching it to our church that it will do the same for each of you. This song is all about that journey from understanding who God is and how worthy He is to our only possible response to that revelation - worship.
Here are the words...
It's falling from the clouds, a strange and lovely sound
I hear it in the thunder and rain
It's ringing in the skies like cannons in the night
the music of the universe plays
You are Holy, Great and Mighty
the moon and the stars declare who You are
I'm so unworthy, but still You love me
Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
All Glory, Honor, Power is Yours AMEN!
All Glory, Honor, Power is Yours AMEN!
All Glory, Honor, Power is Yours, forever AMEN!!!
What a beautiful anthem of declaring worth to God. I pray that as we go through our daily routines, and regular difficulties this week that we will be recognizing and celebrating God's amazing worth and through our obedience, our kindness, our love and our service to others we will give Him the worship He alone deserves.
A Mighty Fortress is our God
Author: Martin Luther
AND
A Mighty Fortress
Author: Christy Nockels
I put these two songs together because, to me, they go together. They both talk of the safety and security we have in Christ. I think that there are too many frilly, girly worship songs out there (not that I don't love some of them). I just think that it would greatly benefit the body of Christ to have more songs like these two in our worship services. I think they are the type of songs that men connect with - the ones that bring with them mental images of battle, war, weapons, fire, victory and triumph.
We can talk about how lovely and beautiful Christ is - and that is important too - and very scriptural and true. But we also can't forget how mighty and awesome and powerful God is - able to conquer any foe, demolish any stronghold and bring victory to any battle. That's the God of the Bible!
Think about Old Testament stories like that of David, Moses, Abraham, Gideon, Esther - all magnificent stories of God intervening in this world and bringing victory to His people. The New Testament carries the word of the most amazing triumph in all of history - that of Jesus Christ, the Son of God - Creator of the Universe triumphing over sin and death on the cross.
Worship is about coming to a greater understanding of who God is and what God has done and responding in whatever way God is leading - in Spirit and in truth. These two songs each tell the truth about who God is and inspire in us a reverence for the power and majesty of God.
It is said that Martin Luther was inspired by Psalm 46 when he was writing this famous hymn.
Psalm 46 says:
"1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear,
though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields [b] with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Sunday Song Devotions - June 13, 2010
I absolutely love each of the songs chosen for Sunday's service. I love that each of them flows into the next and they all tie together. Although it is not always the case, I often try to take a sort of journey with the songs that I choose for a Sunday morning. I believe that worship is our response to who God is and what God has done. Considering that definition, it is important to start with who God is and what God has done and then it is an easy transition to begin to think (or sing) about what that means to us in the here and now. So that's what Sunday's music was all about.
We began our service with a celebratory song about God's holiness (Holy is the Lord). This song, written by Chris Tomlin and Louie Giglio reminds me of the verse in Isaiah 6 that says, "And they were calling to one another: 'Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory." (Isa 6:3).
I especially love the bridge of this song that says, "It's rising up all around, it's the anthem of the Lord's renown." The words, though a bit complicated and fancy simply are saying that we (the Lord's renown) are raising up an anthem of praise for the Holy One. Beautiful.
Next comes I Stand Amazed in the Presence and My Jesus, I Love Thee. Both of these songs are all about what God has done through Jesus Christ. My Jesus, I Love Thee is one of my favorite hymns because of the simplicity and tenderness of the lyrics. It was written by a man named William Featherston, who was actually sixteen at the time! As far as we know this is the only hymn written by him in his short life - he died at the age of 26.
I have had the awesome privilege of leading worship for middle, high school and college students for several years. There is something so authentic about the worship that students bring. It always amazed me how they, who are so young, can be so beautifully passionate about Jesus. It's no wonder that youth are the ones who start revivals. They are the ones who can change the world with that kind of passion - Just as William Featherston wrote a song that has been affecting lives and hearts for over 100 years!
Immediately after singing about what God has already done through the cross, we continue in worship of the Lamb who WAS and IS and IS TO COME by singing the song, Revelation Song!
I love that picture. From the cross to the second coming - He is and was and forever will be the Holy One - the Almighty - the Only One worthy of our worship!
I found an article written by Jenny Lee Riddle, the author of Revelation Song, that details how the song came to be and what it means to her. Here's a part of her article:
I, again, began telling Him how much I wanted to SEE and HEAR all creation worshipping Him. The songs being sung by the Bride at that time were focusing on need. My heart longed to focus on something far greater than my need, knowing that all needs would be satisfied with just one glimpse of Him.
Therefore, I asked the Holy Spirit to help me write a song that painted Him; a song that the angels and creation were already singing, so that we could join in with One Voice, as One Bride, to One King. My heart recalled Ezekiel 1:26-28 and Revelation 4:
“And then, as they stood with folded wings, there was a voice from above the dome over their heads. Above the dome there was something that looked like a throne, sky-blue like a sapphire, with a humanlike figure towering above the throne. From what I could see, from the waist up he looked like burnished bronze and from the waist down like a blazing fire. Brightness everywhere! The way a rainbow springs out of the sky on a rainy day—that's what it was like. It turned out to be the Glory of God! (Message)
“…a throne set in heaven, and One sat on the throne. And He who sat there was[like a jasper and a sardius stone in appearance; and there was a rainbow around the throne, in appearance like an emerald. Around the throne were twenty-four thrones, and on the thrones I saw twenty-four elders sitting, clothed in white robes; and they had crowns[] of gold on their heads. And from the throne proceeded lightenings, thunderings, and voices… Before the throne there was a sea of glass, like crystal… And in the midst of the throne, and around the throne, were four living creatures… And they do not rest day or night, saying: ‘ Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, Who was and is and is to come!’…”
I put the baby down to play with his toys, picked up the guitar, and began to play four chords I had “discovered” the day before. Immersed in those scriptures, the Lord helped me paint what I was seeing through those passages," Clothed in rainbows of living color, flashes of lightening, rolls of thunder..." The melody stuck. It had the sound of heaven in it. The song wouldn’t leave me and I sang it for weeks.
... (and my favorite part of the article):
“Revelation Song” has taken on a life of its own, and it has been an intense joy to watch the Father “grow it up”, and to hear the Voice of the Bride sing to Jesus; Her voice is so lovely. I often get asked the song story, and even more often, the question of “how” it got “out there” comes up. My only answer is that God chooses what He chooses. No amount of maneuvering, strategizing, posturing, or pitching would have gotten my music “out there”… whatever that means. I remember telling Jesus with complete sincerity that I could wait until I got to heaven to hear my song sung (although, I also suggested that it would be a terrific song for the angels and great cloud of witnesses to sing when He comes back for us…In the event that He had not already chosen one for the occasion, I didn’t think it would hurt to ask!).
for the full text of the article, or for more articles by Jenny Lee, visit the link below:
http://www.praisecharts.com/live/articles/145/1/The-Story-Behind-Revelation-Song-/Page1.html
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Sunday Song Devotions - June 6, 2010
"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." - James 1:17
Author: Twila Paris
We will glorify the King of kings
We will glorify the Lamb
We will glorify the Lord of lords
Who is the Great I Am
Lord Jehovah reigns in majesty
We will bow before His throne
We will worship Him in righteousness
We will worship Him alone
The following is from the book, "Open the Eyes of My Heart" devotional book by Integrity:
"Thomas Aquinas taught that God is pure act. In other words, whatever God is, God does. It is impossible for God's acts to be inconsistent with His character. For example, we may be patient people but have impatient moments. Not God. The great "I Am" is consistent, always the same. So we glorify our King, our Lord, the Lamb, worshiping Him alone because we can rely on Him 100 percent of the time.
No burden or need exists that His character can't meet. He doesn't have days off or suddenly decide to treat us differently. In fact, He is able to do much more than we could ever think or ask.
When we need a loving parent, Hw is our "Abba" Father (Romans 8:15)
When we're feeling insecure, He is a "sure foundation" (Isaiah 28:16)
When we're thirsty, He is our "spring" of living water (John 4:14)
When we're vulnerable, He is able to "keep us from falling" (Jude 24)
When we're lost, He is our "light" and our "salvation" (Psalm 27:1)
We get into trouble when we try to meet our needs ourselves! When we focus on God's amazing sufficiency, we find more than enough. He wants to fill us to overflowing. Thank God for being your great "I AM". He alone deserves your worship!"
All Hail the Power of Jesus' Name
11"You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being." - Revelation 4:11
Author: Edward Perronet, 1726-1792. Altered by John Rippon, 1751-1836
This hymn is often called the "National Anthem of Christendom." The hymn first appeared in the November, 1779, issue of the Gospel Magazine, edited by Augustus Toplady, author of "Rock of Ages". This text has been translated into almost every language where Christianity is known; and wherever it is sung, it communicates to the spiritual needs of human hearts. One writer has said, "So long as there are Christians on earth, it will continue to be sung; and after that, in heaven."
Edward Perronet was born at Sudnridge, Kent, England, in 1726. He was a descendant of a distinguished French Huguenot family who had fled to Switzerland and later to england because of religious persecution in France. Edward's father, a pastor in the State Church of England, was strongly sympathetic with the evangelical movement spearheaded by the Wesleys and George Whitefield. Edward, too, became a minister in the Anglican Church but was always critical of its ways. Once he wrote, "I was born and I am likely to die in the tottering communion of the Church of England, but I despise her nonsense." Soon, however, he broke from the Church and threw himself strenuously into the evangelistic endeavors of the Wesleys during the 1740s and 1750s. It was during this time that the Wesleys and their followers suffered much persecution and even violence from those who disagreed with their ministry. Eventually, Perronet's strong-mindedness and free spirit caused a break with the Wesleys. Perronet continued to the end of his days as pastor of an independent church in Canterbury, England.
His last words have also become classic:
Glory to God in the height of His divinity!
Glory to God in the depth of His humanity!
Glory to God in His all-sufficiency!
Into His hands I commend my spirit.
Many interesting accounts have been associated with the use of this hymn. One of the most remarkable is a story told by E.P. Scott, a pioneer missionary to India. One day he was waylaid by a murderous band of tribesmen who were closing in on him with spears. On impulse the missionary took his violin out of his luggage and began to play and sing this hymn. When he reached the stanza "let every kindred, every tribe," he saw to his surprise every spear lowered and many of these tribesmen moved to tears. Scott spent the remaining years of his life preaching and ministering God's love and redemption to these people.
Glory to God Forever
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. - 2 Corinthians 4:8-11
Author: Steve Fee, Vicky Beeching
This song reminds me that no matter what we go through in life, be it financial issues, loss of a loved one, divorce, health problems that our life is to bring glory to God regardless. I have personally had moments in the midst of great difficulties and incredible pain where I didn't know how in the world it would bring God glory, but have had to say "Glory to God anyway!" I heard a wonderful sermon a few months back titled, "Hallelujah Anyway". The message was simple, that no matter what comes at you in life, whether good, bad, painful, difficult or devastating - there is only one response that is always appropriate - to worship and praise Him anyway - to say "Hallelujah Anyway!".
I think that this song has a very strong message to that effect. I love the words of the bridge:
Take my life and let it be all for You and for Your glory
Take my life and let it be Yours!
I sincerely want that to be my constant prayer to God - to take me and use me in any way that will bring Him the most glory. Like Paul, who was poured out as a drink offering to the Almighty or like Jeremiah, who was called the weeping prophet because he spent his entire life proclaiming a message no one wanted to hear. Like Abraham, who was willing to kill his own son as an offering of worship to His God. Or like Esther who gave up her family, her name, her safety and all she had known in order to save God's people by sharing a bed with the one who could have destroyed them all! We all have different life circumstances, different difficulties, different hurts and sorrows - but we also all have one purpose here on this earth - to glorify the LORD our Maker!
I am reminded of another song that I find to be a beautiful anthem of surrender and worship. It's called Bring the Rain, by Mercy Me. The lyrics are below. I pray that this becomes your anthem today. No matter what you are going through. You can decide right now that God's glory is more important than your comfort or peace or freedom. Sing these words to God in an act of surrender. God is worthy of glory - not just despite our circumstances, but right in the middle of them!
I can count a million times people asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me - Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord, My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace, Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days when this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of the dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me by suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Sunday Song Devotions - May 30, 2010
"Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation. Let us come before Him with thanksgiving and extol Him with music and song." Psalm 95:1-2
Author: Billy Foote
The following is from PraiseGathering.com:
Sing to the King - Randy Vader
(Friday, March 24, 2006)
“I love to sing. I love to hear singing. I love the idea of using music for the purpose it was created… to bring praise to God. I love everything about the music of the church except the music of the church I don’t like. Music I don’t like distracts me. Music I don’t like makes me angry. Music I don’t like frustrates my ability to worship.”
How many times have we heard comments like these? When I am confronted by dear saints who struggle with this, I always start the conversation with . . . I don’t want to talk about what you like. I want to talk about what you don’t like. And when they vent all of their feelings about the awful state of music in the church- I ask the big question. What is the big question? “Are you prepared to believe that God can use something for His glory that you can’t stand?!”
I certainly have my preferences – but as a song writer and publisher and minister - I try to not let my personal preferences get confused with my Theological absolutes. Because something does not speak to me culturally or does not fall into the realm of my own taste does not mean that it isn’t speaking to someone else.
Psalm 40 tells us that God gave us a song – a song of praise – but He did not tell us what it sounded like… in fact, He did not say that many will hear the song and their lives will be changed… He said that many will SEE and their lives will be changed. I hope those who are trying to praise the Lord don’t see some saints with arms folded and angry looks on their faces or worse yet – getting up and walking out! And lest you think I am above the argument, I am sorry to confess that I have been guilty of all of these. My prayer is that we would spend more time focusing on who we have come to worship rather than how we are going about it. That is where the Scriptures put the emphasis… that should tell us something.
Psalm 40 (A David psalm)
"I waited and waited and waited for God. At last He looked; finally He listened. He lifted me out of the ditch, pulled me from deep mud. He stood me up on a solid rock to make sure I wouldn't slip. He taught me how to sing the latest God-song, a praise-song to our God. More and more people are seeing this: they enter the mystery, abandoning themselves to God."
Psalm 95:1-7
"Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation. Let us come before Him with thanksgiving and extol Him with music and song. For the Lord is the great God, the great King above all gods. In His hand are the depths of the earth, and the mountain peaks belong to Him. The sea is His, for He made it, and His hands formed the dry land. Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the Lord our Maker; for He is our God and we are the people of His pasture, the flock under His care."
How Great Thou Art
"O LORD our LORD, how excellent is Thy Name in all the earth! who has set Thy glory above the heavens." - Psalm 8:1
Author: English words written by Stuart K. Hine around 1933. (inspired by the original which was written in swedish by Swedish pastor, Carl Boberg in 1886)
The original song was actually a poem written by Pastor Carl Boberg in 1886 and was entitled, "O Store Gud". His inspiration for this text was said to have come from a visit to a beautiful country estate on the southeast coast of Sweden. He was suddenly caught in a midday thunderstorm with awe-inspiring moments of flashing violence, followed by a clear brilliant sun. Soon afterwards he heard the calm, sweet songs of the birds in nearby trees. The experience prompted the pastor to fall to his knees in humble adoration of His mighty God. He penned his exaltation in a nine-stanza poem beginning with the Swedish words, "O Store Gud, nar jad den varld besgader." Several years later Boberg was attending a meeting in the Province of Varmland and was surprised to hear the congregation sing his poem to the tune of an old Swedish melody.
Not long after it was written, it was then translated into German by Manfred von Glehn and entitled, "Wie gross bist Du." Later in 1925, the Reverend E Gustav Johnson of North Park College in Chicago, IL made the first literal English translation fromt he Swedish test. This translation is quite different from the test that we know today but can still be found in some hymnals. Johnson's literal translation of the Swedish test is entitled, "O Mighty God, When I Behold the Wonder."
In 1927, I. S. Prokhanoff came upon the German version and translated it into the Russian language.
In 1933, the Reverend S. K. Hine and his wife, English missionaried, were ministering the the people of the Ukraine. It was there that they learned the Russian translation of "O Store Gud" from a congregation of Ukrainians.
Later, while they were crossing into Sub-Carpathian Russia, where the mountain scenery was so beautiful, they began to write original English lyrics to the song inspired by unforgettable experiences in the Carpathian mountains. This is where they wrote the first three verses that we sing today. The fourth was written later upon their return to England. (Source: 101 Hymn Stories by Kenneth W. Osbeck)
Note from Kim:
I think what is most intriguing about this song is the fact that it is not even nearly the original version that is sung today. It was inspired by a version of an interpretation of the original. Yet we consider it sacred. I personally believe it is lyrically one of the most beautiful of the hymns currently in our hymnbooks, and I'm sure most would agree. However, like many of the hymns that we consider to be so sacred it is not the original. So many would argue that it is inappropriate to change, alter or update the hymns. However, many of them are updates or alterations in and of themselves. Interesting.
I think it's a wonderful reminder that the originality of the text is not what makes it sacred, but rather the truth of it. The reason that Mr. Hine re-wrote this song with English lyrics is so that more people would be able to hear, sing and understand the song that had meant so much to him and his wife. We need to be willing and ready to do the same when needed in order that those of the 21st century will be able to understand and sing the songs that we have loved for so long.
What a beautiful reminder that these songs are just simply an opportunity for us to learn something about the character of God and to worship Him for that revelation. We must remember not to worship the song itself, but the One to which the song was written.
How Great Is Our God
"How great is God - beyond our understanding!" Job 36:26
Author: Chris Tomlin
The following is from Crosswalk.com
in an article entitled, "What are we Singing: How Great is Our God"
written by Eva Marie Everson
"Singer/Songwriter Chris Tomlin’s song How Great is Our God has inspired this generation of believers by reminding us that God is no ordinary being sitting on a common throne dressed in rags. God’s very being, according to the Word, expresses magnificence our words strain to capture.
Isaiah wrote: In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: with two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another: Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory. At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.
This paints a powerful picture of who God is and how His Spirit reveals Himself to those who are “ready” to see how wonderful—which is surely a weak word for describing the Almighty—God truly is.
From the beginning of time, God has urged us to glimpse into his greatness. In Genesis 28, the patriarch Jacob—who was not quite a father himself but a son on the run—lays down to sleep while traveling from Beersheba to Haran, his mother’s hometown. While sleeping, Jacob dreamed of a stairway stretching from earth to heaven. The angels of God ascended and descended on the ladder, but at the top stood the Lord, who spoke to Jacob, making a lasting covenant with him and his descendents.
The prophets’ writings (such as those found in Ezekiel and Isaiah) are filled to overflowing with visions and elements of God’s majesty and sovereignty. The New Testament story begins with God’s display of greatness. Glory to God in the highest, the angels sang above the shepherds' field. And on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests. Jesus' ministry was filled with miracles, His death resulted in the darkening of the sky, an earthquake, the tearing of the veil in the temple, and the opening of graves; the occupants of those graves filled again with life. Three days later He returned from the grave Himself, fully alive. Forty days after that, He ascended before witnesses just outside of Jerusalem.
This same Jesus revealed Himself to John, His beloved disciple, approximately 40 years later in what has become known as John's Revelation. John's description of the Christ is much like those of Ezekiel and Isaiah in detail.
His feet were like bronze glowing in a furnace, and his voice was like the sound of rushing waters…When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said: “Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One; I was dead and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.”
God displayed his power and will to Paul on the road to Damascus and, at some point, took the apostle (or so theologians believe it was Paul) to “the third heaven.” Is it any wonder then that Paul wrote:
Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How Unsearchable his judgments and his paths beyond tracing out. Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor? Who has ever given to God that God should repay him? For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be the glory forever!
How Great is Our God!
And is it any wonder then that Chris Tomlin penned his words in tribute to the greatness of God? Or that even with the sheer beauty and imagery of the lyrics and the Scriptures, we cannot come close to knowing… to understanding… to reaching the full definition of His greatness.
Perhaps none of us, really, are ready to know just how wonderful God truly is."
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Real Worship
I love John Mark McMillan. Mostly because he's so honest and real in his songs. I love that. I think it's something that's altogether missing from worship music. If you're a songwriter, worship leader, singer, worshipper - please read the above post. I think it's important that you do.
- Kim
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
My little lost sheep
He started asking me questions about how much she weighed or how tall she was, her date of birth, what she was wearing - most of which I couldn't remember because of the state of mind that I was in.
About a hundred scenarios rushed through my mind as I was running up and down my street calling her little name terrified that she wouldn't be found.
As the police were less than a minute away (I heard sirens), Elisa came out the front door yelling that they found her! At first I didn't believe it - I said "What do you mean you found her?" confused at how she could just suddenly show back up. Apparently she was hiding in the very back of my closet behind the low hanging clothes. What's crazy is that I looked in that closet twice - and even looked behind that rack of clothes! I called to her when I was looking in there and she didn't answer. I still am very curious about what was going through her little mind as she hid for 30 minutes without a peep while we were frantically calling for her to come out.
I can't even put to words how I felt when I thought she was lost - and how I felt after she had been found.
I wonder if that's how God feels about us. I wonder if He feels that same kind of pain when we're trying to hide from Him and refusing to be found. I know that He knows where we are and so doesn't experience fear. I wonder, though, if the pain He feels for His lost sheep is anything like the pain I felt last night about my little lost sheep. I wonder if, when His lost sheep return if He feels anything like I did last night when mine showed back up.
I think the part of all of it that still amazes me is that when we found Maya she had no idea anything was happening. I couldn't control my sobbing when I was finally holding her again - and she just kept looking at me trying to figure out what in the heck was wrong with her crazy mommy. She had no idea that she was the one that caused the pain.
I have a feeling that there's a lesson there for us. I'm still a little too weary and shaken up to explore it fully. But I know this. If God loves me more than I love Maya (and I know He does b/c He's the source of the love in the first place), then I know He must feel so much more deeply than I ever could for His lost sheep. It makes me want to pray so much harder for those lost sheep who mean everything to Him. It makes me want to look at people differently when I know how deeply the Father cares for them.
Last night was the hardest night of my life so far (and I've had really hard ones!). I pray that God will use what I've learned for His glory.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Wait, Wait, Wait your turn...
Ever since my oldest daughter was little, I wanted her to be good at waiting. I think it's hugely important for us to teach our kids that waiting is important and that they can't always have what they want immediately when they want it. It's so annoying to see a child chanting over and over again what they want and how they want it NOW! I really, really didn't want my child to be like that. So, when Elisa was about 2 or so, I taught her a 'waiting' song to make it more fun while she had to wait for something - her turn when playing with friends, for her food to be ready to eat - you get the idea. The song went like this (to the tune of Row, Row, Row Your Boat)...
Wait, wait, wait your turn - waiting can be fun.
Patience, Patience, Patience everyone.
We sang it over and over and over again. We would sing it on long car rides when she wanted to be home already, or when she wanted so badly to go play at the park but I had some chores to do first. It was actually really effective with her. She had fun with the song. I think it helped me to teach her that waiting can be fun and how to deal with things that aren't happening as quickly as she would like. Even now when she has trouble with waiting, I remind her of the song and she'll sing it by herself (sidenote: I have the best kid ever :)
I wonder if I need my own grown up version of the 'waiting' song.
I have such a hard time waiting on God's timing in just about every area of my life. I wonder if sometimes He is using my circumstances to teach me about the importance of learning to wait on Him. I wonder if I will ever learn the lesson. You would think that each time would get a little easier, or that I would at least be a little less impatient than the last time. Sadly, I'm not sure that's the case. I hope that today I've made progress - and that tomorrow I'll be more patient.
I can almost hear Him inviting me to sing along with Him -
"Wait, wait, wait your turn...waiting can be fun.
Patience, patience, patience everyone."
Saturday, December 05, 2009
View from the Fishbowl
Tonight as I was laying in bed trying desperately to sleep, God brought back to mind that encounter. I began to wonder how often I behave that way. How often do I wish that those around me would either go my way or just get out of my way altogether? I'm not talking about driving. I'm talking about life. About ministry. About relationships. I often get annoyed or impatient with people not doing things the way that makes the most sense to me. Sometimes even at God. I often wish that God would do things in a way that makes sense to me. I often find myself wondering, "Now why'd you do it that way, God?"
The man in that truck knew nothing about me, my route, my life...but he was annoyed that I was making things harder for him. It was all about him. So often we get stuck in the 'but what about me' mindset and forget that "God is painting on a canvas bigger than we can see or comprehend". Our little piece of the puzzle is just that - a little piece. When I begin to think I deserve, desire, wish, want or need anything apart from what God says I need - I miss the bigger picture. I'm seeing things from inside the fishbowl.
Often God won't let me go to sleep until He's told me what He needed to tell me - until my will is surrendered to His - until my heart is about obedience and the things of God. Tonight is a night like that.
My prayer for tonight is that God will help me to step outside of myself, my problems, my hurt, my confusion and try to see things from an eternal perspective instead of from my tiny little fishbowl.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
The Things Kids say...
Sydney: Mommy, do you like me?
Me: Of course I like you! Why?
Sydney: Because I don't like you.
Friday, November 13, 2009
The Lord is my Maestro
The LORD is my Maestro, I will sing for Him alone.
He fills me with joy and excitement as He lets me play my part,
He rejoices over me with singing, and puts His music in my heart.
He stirs my soul and pulls out the innermost parts of me,
So that I can play a part in His majestic symphony!
Even when life is hard and I'm stuck in a minor key,
I know He'll lead me through it with His perfect melody.
And when no one cares or understands the songs I choose to sing,
He lovingly reminds me that I'm singing only for my King!
As God allows, my lifesong will proclaim His Holy Name,
And then He'll fly me up to Heaven where I'll worship with the saints!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 02, 2009
What we are worshipping we are becoming...
Ralph Waldo Emerson
I read this quote earlier today and was moved by it. Emerson was a pastor in a Christian church early in his life. He then lost his wife and began to pull away from the church. Eventually he spearheaded the Transcendental movement in the 19th century. I wonder at what point in his life he wrote this.
I read this quote and am both inspired and convicted.
I have read through it several times and I completely agree with Ralph on this topic. He's right.
We all worship something.
What we worship determines who we are.
I especially love the last line...what we are worshipping we are becoming.
I pray that is true of me.
I believe that is the true goal of God-worship:
To become more like Christ.
If we are not becoming more like Christ ...
we probably should be asking the question ...
what are we really worshiping?
Monday, October 26, 2009
How He Loves
When I write songs, most of them come directly from my journal. Many of them are what I was saying to God, or what God was saying to me. They are usually very personal. This song is so very personal. Not just to John Mark, but to me, and to so many people all over the world.
I think that the Gospel message can really be summed up in the words to the chorus of this song:
He loves us, Oh how He loves us, Oh how He loves us, Oh how He loves!!
I also really love the (controversial) lyrics in the 2nd verse:
Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kissI honestly hate that there are so many churches that feel that they need to change the lyrics of the song in order to make it more 'comfortable' for the congregations. I hate that we feel that we have to make the Gospel more 'comfortable' for people. I believe that Christ's birth, death and resurrection were anything but comfortable. I very much believe that they were very messy and uncomfortable (you might even say kind of like a 'sloppy wet kiss'). I wish that we spent less time worrying about offending people with the message of Christ and more time worrying about people dying without Him!
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way...(He loves us!)
In regards to the controversial lyrics, John Mark had this to say:
"The idea behind the lyric is that the kingdom of heaven and the kingdom of
earth converge in a way that is both beautiful and awkwardly messy. Think
about the birth of a child, or even the death of Jesus himself. These miracles are both incredibly beautiful and incredibly sloppy ("gory" may be more realistic, but “Heaven meets earth like a gory mess” didn’t seem to have the same ring). Why does the church have such a problem with things being sloppy? Do we really think we’re fooling anyone on Sunday morning, especially God? Are we going to offend him? I mean, he’s seen us naked in the shower all week and knows our worst thoughts, and still thinks we’re awesome. What if we took all the energy we spent faking and used that energy to enjoy the Lord instead? That could be revolutionary!"
If you haven't heard the song yet, check it out here.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Hypocritical Worship
God was talking here to the Israelites who were, according to God, extremely unjust and wicked. They were lying, cheating, oppressing the poor. He called them hypocrites because they talked about worship and sacrifice, but they ignored the injustices happening among them. In these verses it is obvious that these injustices and the lack of righteous living were absolutely essential to worship. They could not worship God on Sunday (or Saturday actually, right?) and act like everyone else the rest of the week.
When our life outside the church walls doesn't match our life inside the church walls - When we say we love Jesus, but can't love our co-worker or neighbor - When we promise to follow His ways, but ignore the hurting or needy all around us - our worship becomes hollow. It becomes useless to God. Worship is, after all, more than music - it's about obedience. I have heard worship defined as "our response to who God is and what God has done."
I do think it's interesting that in these verses he specifically talks about music. Have you ever been singing a song on Sunday morning about the amazing grace of Jesus Christ when you realized that you are still angry at your spouse for something that happened earlier that day or even that week?? I have. Have you ever sat in the middle of the worship service and been annoyed or even angry about the odd outbursts of someone who may be new to church and God and who is quite different than the people you normally see come through your church doors? Guilty.
God doesn't care at all for offerings of worship that aren't backed up by our lifestyle. He isn't interested in hollow worship. He isn't pleased by singing hypocrites - no matter how beautiful we think we sound.
If we seek to worship God, we must also seek His justice. If we seek to worship God, we must also share His grace. If we seek to truly worship God, we must stand up for what is right (no matter what people think of us).
I'm reminded of a song I've loved for a long time called Stand by Susan Ashton. Here is my favorite part...
In a moment of truth at the top of the will
I open my arms and let go of my will
And stand with my face to the wind
With the storm beating down
On this sacred ground
If I stand, for the graceI have known
For what I believe
Then I won't stand alone - no I won't stand alone.
Monday, July 27, 2009
When you were 16...
Me? I'm not sure - but probably thought I'd be a professional singer, living on the road and seeing the world. I always wanted to travel everywhere.
Kind of funny because I have honestly never been anywhere!
What about you???
Monday, July 20, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Toothpaste or Strawberries?
I just kept thinking...toothpaste? really? That's what you want? I even tried offering her some strawberries (her favorite) and she wouldn't have it. It was toothpaste or bust!
I started thinking about all the times I've done that to God. How many times have I cried over the "toothpaste" that I couldn't live without when God had juicy, red, wonderful strawberries He wanted to give me if I'd just stop crying over the lost toothpaste!
I wonder if God laughs at me the way I did Maya. Probably so.
What about you? Are you crying over toothpaste, or waiting for the strawberries?
Friday, April 24, 2009
Screamo worship?
In the meantime, check out this post by my friend, the goofy college dude. I hope you will appreciate his words as much as I did!
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Not Good Enough...part 2
I know that God doesn’t need us to accomplish His will – BUT He chooses to use us. In light of that…
I believe we should offer our everything. The very best we have to give. I can't imagine anyone would disagree with that, but how often do we really live that way?
Like the story in John 12 about the anointing at Bethany. When Mary came with her very best perfume, in a very large bottle and poured it all out on Jesus feet – she was giving him everything she had. Holding nothing back. She didn’t bring whatever was closest to the door (most convenient), the one that was easiest to find or carry, she didn’t pick something off the street to bring to Jesus. She picked the very best, most expensive, most treasured thing she had to offer to her King. She wasn't concerned with convenience, ease or cost.
She knew it would cost her. I wonder what she was giving up in order to bring that offering to Jesus. I’m guessing it was just as much a sacrifice as an offering. I’m guessing that it probably cost her a meal or two or ten – and it meant that she would be questioned, ridiculed, criticized . I wonder if she was afraid what people would think? I wonder if she was wondering how she would take care of her bills/food/family? I am wondering if she thought about anything else at all – other than the incredible privilege of bringing her very best to the One and Only?
I am reminded of a specific time in my life when I abandoned all in worship of that same One and Only. There was a mission trip I was a part of as a teenager – called Houston 2000. I honestly don’t remember what we did there. I don’t remember what the purpose of the trip was (sad, huh?). I only remember that it is there that Jesus met me where I was and taught me how to worship. Not just in song, but in lifestyle. Not just through music, but through thoughts and intentions and obedience. It was in that place that I understood for the first time what it felt like to abandon everything for the sake of getting just a little closer to the Savior. Usually when we pray or worship we bow our heads or get lower to the ground as a picture of reverence and devotion. That’s a wonderful thing. But that time God brought me to a place where I was standing on my tip-toes reaching up as high as I could desperate to be closer to him. My eyes were wide open and I was looking up to that ugly ceiling and sobbing and singing with everything in me that Jesus was my everything. Oh to go back to that place.
I have experienced many similar moments over these last 10 years – but none like that one. It was my first. Firsts are special. The first time I met Jesus was special – I will never meet Him like that again. The first time I held each of my daughters were special – I will never feel like that again with any of them. The first time I held my husband’s hand and looked into his eyes was special. Even though I love him more now than I ever thought possible – it will never feel like it did that first time.
That moment in Houston, TX I met Jesus in a way that I never have since. It was the moment that I understood that He wants my everything. Not just some of me – but all of me. Not just my best – but my VERY best. Not just 1 day a week, but 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Anything less than that is not good enough. My last post was all about how I feel like I’m in a perpetual state of not-good-enough. I hope that won’t always be the case. I struggle EVERY day – EVERY moment – with trying to remember to give God my everything. My thoughts. My works. My family. My job. My relationships. My obedience. My words. My intentions. My feelings. I know He wants it all. I wonder if in our busy schedules, many responsibilities, and all the things we do FOR God we are missing the simple act of sitting at His feet giving Him everything we have heart and soul?
God deserves my best, expects my best and even demands my very best. Anything short of that is not good enough. I pray that today I will make every effort to serve him instead of others, to love him instead of myself, to focus on him instead of all the ‘things’ I need to get done. And I pray that I will learn to rely on His strength and instruction in order to do all of those things. I pray that my life today will be an act of worship of my One and Only. Anything less than that is simply not good enough.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Not Good Enough
I don't think that it's such a bad thing to always want to give more, do more, be more for Christ. I actually think it's a good thing for me to feel that way about myself.
BUT...here's where it becomes a not-so-good thing. My incredibly high standards that I set for myself (and never feel like I come close to achieving) are starting to color my opinions of others around me. I often expect everyone around me to aim for those impossible standards too, and when they don't I get really frustrated. I KNOW it's my own issue - and that I should only worry about myself, but have been really struggling with it lately.
In John 21, Jesus is asking Peter if he loves Him and Peter keeps saying yes - and Jesus keeps saying, then feed my sheep..then this happened...
20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
22Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me."
It's interesting that in the middle of the lesson that Jesus was trying to teach Peter - about how to love Him - he gets distracted by someone else around him and wants to know what Jesus wanted to do with him. Jesus says basically that it's none of his business - and that all that should matter to Peter is what Peter will do. I have been focusing a lot on this passage lately and have been making huge efforts to focus on my service, my job, my responsibilities as a follower of Christ and not worrying about everyone else's responsibilities. It's a battle I struggle with almost daily - and I intend to win.
Jesus says to me today...'as for you, Kim...you must follow me."
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Funny Kid Stories
Wisdom from an 8 year old (all of this happened during the car ride home from school):
First...
E: "I think it must take a long time for food to go from our mouth all the way back out."
Mom: "Actually, baby it has to go through a lot of organs before it's ready to come back out - like your stomach and your intestines."
E: "Hey - dogs have intestines too! I learned that from Martha Speaks." Then, in her best know-it-all voice..."See mom, Martha Speaks is educational. That's why I should always get to watch it. And Cyberchase too cause it teaches fractions."
Then...
E: "I wonder if anyone knows how to stop the water from coming out when they need to go to the restroom. I think the scientists should really figure that one out."
And my very favorite...
As we were driving into our neighborhood there was a kid with his parents all out in the middle (the actual middle) of the street! They didn't even look up or move when we (in my huge van) finally had to just drive around them! Then my 8-yr old said..
E: "I wonder if they are hobos. (pause) One of my friends in Sunday School said that hobos are d-u-m-b (she spells it cause she thinks it's a major bad word) cause they go into the street and just lay down until cars run over them. But I think they just sit next to the street and ask for food and money and clothes and stuff cause they are actually homeless."
Wisdom from a 2-year-old:
First...
The other day Syd was lifting up and down her shirt because she thought it was funny. Then suddenly she stopped and said...
S: "Mommy, mommy look! (then she pointed at her chest) - I have bra!"
And last night...
After tooting on me and laughing she suddenly had a very concerned look on her face and said...
S: "Mommy? Yesterday I toot on Christian's mommy."
Mom: "What, baby?"
S: Yesterday I toot on Aunt Chelle."
Don't really have any wisdom from the 1-year-old yet, but give her 6 months or so and I'm sure she'll be just as genius as the other two.
Man, I love my kids!




